The Selah

I was just thinking whether it was wise to have been so open about what has been happening to me recently. Because, honestly, it dosen't look very pretty. All this thrashing around. All these expressions of doubt. All this uncertainty. I mean what would people think of me? All these wonderful blog entries then suddenly. . .reality strikes!

Like the saying goes, reality bites -- and Eugene's ass sure got bit.

But I am reminded that that's what happened in the Bible.

The Word of God does not whitewash people's lives. It's a Book of very real lives -- lives that went through tragedy, dissapointment, failure.

Take a look at the Book of Psalms. You find many song entries expressing great frustration and sadness. In the New Testament, take a look at Paul's life. The revelation that God's grace is made sufficient came after Paul -- 'God's man of power for the hour' -- got down on his knees and begged God to remove a tormenting personality he was experiencing in his life.

Paul characterized his cry as human weakness. But then like many of the Psalmist who cried out to God and poured out their souls to the Lord, there came the Selah and the revelation of God's ability to empower us in our weakness.

The moment when we still oursleves before the Lord after our initial cries of anguish -- that's when we realize that He is still good.

But the amazing thing here is that the Holy Spirit saw fit to display the weaknesses of His people in the Bible. It was as if these fallable lives were a backdrop where His mercy and amazing love shone. How can love be fully seen unless there is a reciepient?

So I'm going to continue to keep things real in this blog. I am tired of religeous formulas and fake churchianity. I know I serve a living God.

I have poured out my heart. I now wait on the Lord to hear and see him in the midst of my troubles.

I am treating this as an experiment in Grace. That's because I know and believe the Love God has for me.

1 John 4:16-19 (New King James Version)
16 And we have known and believed the love that God has for us. God is love, and he who abides in love abides in God, and God in him.
17 Love has been perfected among us in this: that we may have boldness in the day of judgment; because as He is, so are we in this world. 18 There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment. But he who fears has not been made perfect in love. 19 We love Him because He first loved us.

I have poured out my heart. Now I await the revelation of His love.

Selah.