I Resign

Today I awoke from bed and began inexplicably to feel a little out of sorts.I think it must be because its the beginning of the work week after a lovely long weekend.

Hahaha.

Or perhaps it's because I'm actually going to my first choir rehearsal tonite after the last episode of the very embarassing audtion I had a few weeks ago. Or perhaps I'm supposed to meet two leaders in the music ministry tonite for the audition debrief. I think it's mainly because of that! Come to think of it, I actually had a nitemare last nite about the music ministry.

I think it still haunts me, what happened at the audition.

But as I'm writing this blog entry now -- it's about 11am in the morning, and I'm at my workstation -- I'm reminded to resign from the post of God of Eugene's life.

I told Kevin something the other day that keeps coming back to me. 'Everytime you feel stressed out about something, it's because you've become more important than God in your own life.'

Absolutely.

If I'm suddenly my own God and I have to take over the reigns of my life, then puny old me is going to have a real stressful time working out all the details.

So I now officially tender my resignation.

God is God and I am not.

I am his child. Rested, secure and stress free! And since He's God, He's taking care of it all for me!

I actually thought of resigning from the ministry, but now on second thoughts it might be better if I first resigned from being in charge of my life.

I'm handing over everything again into His loving hands -- and it feels good!